There's no more red lights for me to stop at.
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
By the time this post is up, I'm probably already at the airport preparing for my flight. It's finally the next travel venture for me, and this time, I'd say that it's pretty much one of the most yolo decisions in my life.
I'm backpacking solo to New Zealand for two weeks.
Upon hearing the news, quite a number of people thought I was crazy haha. And they would constantly ask if I'm not the least bit afraid of the possible dangers and what may come. But, that's not gonna stop you, is it? Good goals should scare you a little and excite you a lot, right?
I have a few friends who were really supportive about it and honestly, it's heartwarming to know that they really do try to understand my dilemma or my motivations behind this trip. Many others wrote me off as simply being reckless or not giving two shits about anything though. Maybe they're not entirely wrong.
But when I starting telling some buds about it, I've already brought my air tickets LOL because I already knew very well myself what I wanted, and I didn't want anyone to convince me otherwise.
It took a while to convince my parents, and I did a lot of self-reflecting and homework for this trip. Making a decision like this isn't really that easy. It's easy to say that you want to travel around the whole in search of greater things or to see the world from a bigger perspective. I probably said that too many times to count and I thought it's time I put my words into action. I spent days planning the itinerary, researching and buying some backpacking equipment with the help of an experienced friend, and annoyed him with a lot of questions too. I thought: if I really wanted to broaden my perspectives and make this trip as empowering as I'm seeking it to be, then I'll have to get out of my comfort zone. And thus, the reason why I decided on backpacking solo.
Given all the events that have occurred over these past eight months, I've been feeling pretty lost for a while now. I'm not quite sure how to put it, but maybe it's what some people would call an early life crisis? The things that I once believed in wholeheartedly without doubt or question have all suddenly fell apart.
I lost what was my everything. And now, I have nothing left to lose.
Honestly, it brings about a sort of freedom I never thought I missed, but that's at the expense of losing what I would have called home. I never wanted any of it to end. But it did, and I spent days wondering where am I supposed to go on from here? I've been in this same comfortable spot for years and was genuinely happy during my stay, till the abrupt end that I never saw coming. I've had friends telling me to "move forward", and I don't know which direction I'm heading towards, but I guess change is always better than remaining stagnant.
So, to head to a destination that's free of my sins, a place where memories won't haunt me, a space I would make the best of and call my own; to start on a clean slate. The idea is more than just liberating. And I've been doing everything in my own power to make this dream a reality. Because that's the only thing left I can do for myself.
It's pretty timely. There's just a two week break before the start of my internship, and I have always wanted to try backpacking. It thrills me to be able to experience another culture and interact with the people I'd get to meet along the way. Just thinking back on the ventures in Japan reignites my burning desire to travel!!!
I guess you could stay tuned to this space to keep up with my adventures in New Zealand hue hue. I doubt I'll update it during my stay there cause well, if I have the time to be typing away on my phone I should be exploring the town instead LOL. I'll be heading to the South Island and it's currently early spring over there, which is pretty much about the same temperature as when I headed to Japan (an average of ten degrees in the day and about two at night). Omg yes no more humid weather.
So till then folks!!!
You were like a dream, and dreams don't come true.
Monday, August 17, 2015
Today's my self-proclaimed break after spending my weekends rushing through the writeup, design and editing for my last assignment ever this semester!!
I've been stressing out over my photojournalism module for quite a bit, mainly because I have my own expectations that I wanted to meet and so, I spent quite a deal of time on this final magazine assignment. I did a feature on henna art and but I forgot to take a picture of the magazine copy before I submitted... Genius me.
Anyway here are some of the photos from about two weeks back with Jolaine and Miao Lin who helped me out (being hand/back models LOL) for the assignment. Thanks so much girls!!
The huge sense of accomplishment you get when you see and feel your blood, sweat, tears and sleepless nights in hardcopy really makes it worth the while. And it's a little sad to know that there will no longer be anymore of this magazine assignments... Though I guess this means I get to spare myself from the printing drama/horrors. Being a perfectionist, I reprinted my magazine thrice just to get the perfect copy with zero errors lollll there goes $45. Not to mention staying up till 6AM for three days in a row!!
So yes I deserve a break today before I plunge into the exam mugging phase (or not).