Vivien's belated 17th birthday surprise celebration with h&f on the 10th of May.

Well if you realised how we were in two different sets of clothes, that's because it was on two different days LOL. The first time we planned the surprise, it failed because she wasn't home but away on camp -_- So yeah two seperate days it is.














^muai bff











^#ultimatebimbo must stick your boobs out one

































Happy birthday girl.

It has already been five years (and well I hope we'll still be counting) since we last met and well, settled on being a couple together muahaha. Actually, thinking about it now that was kind of childish LOL all that random notes in class back in primary school but well, they made up a part of our history together. Together with all the basketball matches we played with the seniors back in secondary school and the random videos we would make, this five years with you have been crazy, with a hell load of ups and downs. I won't deny that we get pretty stubborn with each other at times but I'm glad we got over those days. Thanks for sticking by me during my hardest and I hope we'll continue to complain to one another about our fellow Aquarius' hahaha!

Well anyway, this video is meant for you.
Please pardon the amateur editing skills of mine - In a way, the clips from your birthday was like a practice for me to edit my videos for my project (LOL) since it was my first. Ain't it amazing how you actually apply what you leant in school to daily life? Hahaha I can finally do it myself without Zhiyi muahahah. And yeah I get that my filming needs some working on since the clips aren't exactly fantastic with some being underexposed and totally out of focus. But here it is! ^-^"



Nowadays I'm just a camera woman man. I no longer appear in the pictures T-T Well I only have myself to blame for wanting to take good pictures all the time. Oh and actually, I've been going on a couple of photo ventures lately due to a photography assignment which I have to complete. Heh that means a new post coming.

(This post is actually composed during my lecture. Lol I hope my inattentiveness does not result in me failing my graded assignments though.)

I have no idea how I actually allowed my blog to rot for 2 weeks. In the past, I never would have done that lol. Guess it shows how much I have on my hands now. I haven't exactly gotten used to poly life (or maybe I have but either way I'm not the most flexible or adaptable person around) but things are taking a turn for the better. Slowly.

So who am I to ask for more right?

What I love about school so far? Eh I love the mango milkshake and ayam panggang set from Munch.

I practically spend my days either in school, or doing assignments, or work at Gongcha, or on bloody transport that takes up to at least 3 hours of my everyday. 3 hours is no joke man you don't wanna try it -_- Should have been more appreciative of CCHY being near to my home then. And then even though I do nothing but rot on the bus, it's amazing how much of a toll it is physcially cause all I want to do the moment I reach home is crash on my bed. But what I learn in school is mostly fun stuff I guess. I enjoy most of my classes because I basically spend my time playing around with video cameras, photoshop and premier pro muahaha. They're things I take interest in anyway.

Oh and I spent my last last Sunday (5th) and last Sunday (12th) on a road trip with Zhiyi with our film cameras! With Zhiyi's help, I manage to grab a Olympus Trip 35 on the 5th at a really cheapcheap price from the garage sale. Tried it out on the 12th and it's amazyn. I hope the photos turn out great.




Hahah I love film but not as crazy as Zhiyi of course. Instead of spending my money on clothes nowadays, I tend to splurge on cameras and its accessories (i swear film eats all of my allowance aside from transport costs). I just bought like 6 rolls of film the last Sunday.

Okay this is my update for now. I'll blog again sometime soon again (about Vivien's belated birthday) once I'm done with my assignments ):

I thought that 'thinking happy thoughts' would make this journey easier, even if just a little.

(partyin', Magnitude'13 @ NP)

"Another long run, hoping to put distance between me and everything else. The farther, the better. Only problem is, the distance is just temporary, because no matter how far I go, I always have to come back."

Apparently, I'm not as flexible as I'd like myself to be. In fact, I pretty much suck at adapting to a new environment. Life in poly is so different from life in secondary school. Friends, studies, everything. I feel like I'm being pushed to grow up altogether. And yeah it doesn't take a genius to figure out how I'm so not a fan of growing up. Hah, what an irony considering how back in 2009, I can't wait to graduate from secondary school. Now, all I want to do is go back to CCHY; a place where I could totally be comfortable being myself, a place I'd like to call home.

These days are a little hard to get by, and more often than not, I find myself dwelling on problems that don't even exist, but are instead, created by the wandering mind. Friends have been telling me that I'm simply placing too much expectations, and that I should be patient. After all, it has only been a week. Well, I sure hope time would do it's magic. Or curse. Whatever.

I guess this is what "you can never have the best of everything" feels like.

It sucks.

But you know, I'm so grateful for all those who have been giving me so much support - bffs, fellow cchyians in NP, new friends and of course, my baby. You guys make this phase which I'm going through a less painful one.

I should really stop with this negativity. I know my poly life is what I make it to be. And I too, know that "the whole point of growing up is learning to stay on the laughing side". I just hope that I'll be able to muster up enough courage in me to admit my fears and just, move on. I can't stay here forever.